Monday, December 9, 2013

Play on the Popular

So I wanted to join in Sian's "Blog Cos You Want To" Club and take advantage of suggestion #2 - Play on the Popular.  But when I started looking through my old posts, all of the "popular" ones (ie- those with the highest number of comments) came from blog hops and Story Telling Sunday posts.  Which bring in an audience far wider than my "regulars".  So I started looking through the posts that only my "regulars" saw... and decided to share this one again...written August 19, 2011, this was my 500th post:

My 500th Post - Meet My Inner Critic

I've been blogging since October 2, 2008 - nearly 3 years. But I haven't always been a prolific blogger - and definitely not an every day without fail blogger.

But here I am today, nearly three years later, publishing my 500th post.  And if you are someone who likes to do the math, you'll quickly figure out that 500 posts over just shy of three years comes out to just about one post for every two days. And wow! That surprised me. I didn't expect it to be that high.

So how can I mark my 500th post?  What can I do to make this one special? Honestly, I wasn't coming up with anything exciting. Nothing seemed good enough. I tossed aside ideas about polls. And lists of 500 things. And then I realized... my Inner Critic was being loud and obnoxious and I just needed to hush her up. So for my 500th post I'm introducing you to my Inner Critic. And then, just to spite her, I'm doing a fabulous giveaway.  So keep reading!

I've been aware of my Inner Critic for a long, long time. I think most of us are. But I never really took the time to get to KNOW her until recently. I've been reading a book called Journal Spilling by Diana Trout (I did not realize until I was reading the book, she actually lives about 45 minutes from me.)  In her book, Diana introduces her Inner Critic - a short skinny geek with ugly bug glasses who wears his pants too short and his tie too tight. He's a very cartoonish fellow named Stewie. The lesson Diana offers is that when you get to really know your Inner Critic, you take away his/her power.

My Inner Critic is nothing like Diana's.  First off, she's decidedly female. She is 5'6" (the exact height I always want to be but never reached) and physically fit and toned. She wears the classic never-goes-out-of-style clothing and always looks polished and put together. She never leaves the house without makeup on. She never looks frumpy.

We share an affinity for good food, but she is satisfied with a bite or two whereas I am a certified card-carrying member of the clean plate club.

She is the kind of woman who keeps an immaculate home, makes a living, is a supportive spouse and loving mother, yet still finds time for creative pursuits, and does it all with flair and makes it look easy.  You know... the kind of woman you love to hate?

And because this is all natural to her, she expects it to be natural to me as well.  She scoffs at my awkwardness and discomfort in social situations. She reacts with total scorn at my sticky kitchen floors and cluttered counters. In fact, she is really quite judgmental.  Nothing I do is ever good enough for her. You see, we also share a complete lack of tolerance for incompetence and laziness... and she considers me to be both.  (if you've ever watched the showThe Gilmore Girls, she's eerily similar to the character Emily Gilmore as played by Kelly Bishop - see what I mean?)

Honestly, her whole "Martha Stewart" persona and "holier than thou" attitude are quite annoying. In fact, as I've thought more about her, I realized there is nothing AUTHENTIC about her whatsoever. She's just a construct of societal expectations and consumerism. The perfect middle-aged woman of 2011. A total phony. And she's doing her best to peddle her wares on me.  Thing is, I've decided I'm not buying it anymore. It is time to tell my Inner Critic to stuff a sock in it and kick her to the curb!

My no make-up, yoga pants and tee look is far more authentic. My messy home speaks of the real life and real activities happening here. The fact that I am too busy to clean obsessively - I guess that is a good thing!

To celebrate my 500th post AND the occasion of me finally telling my Inner Critic to shut the hell up, I'm offering a give-away!  One lucky blog reader will receive a mixed media canvas art from me (on a canvas panel which can be framed or used as is) designed specifically for the winner.  My Inner Critic is yapping away that nobody would really want my "art," it isn't good enough, the winner will surely be disappointed, blah, blah, blah.  I've firmly clapped my hands over my ears and am singing "la, la, la, la, la, I can't hear you!" at the top of my lungs.  I'm taking the chance and I'm going to do this!

If you would like to participate, please leave a comment telling me your happy color(s), any favorite quote or saying you have, or any other hints that might provide me with inspiration for your piece!  I will choose a winner on Friday, August 26th from all the entries received by then.  [end of 500th post]*

* Obviously, this giveaway was  over two years ago! But if you've been kind enough to read this far, here's the reward -  I've decided to do it again anyway... just as an excuse to play with canvas and paints and messy stuff.  So same rules as before, only I'll choose a winner on Friday, December 13, 2013.  I won't guarantee that the canvas goes out until well into January however...


Sian said...

Cheri, I think this is an absolutely inspired choice for a "re-post" I am quite sure that it will reach out and speak to somebody (at least!) new this time round. It's definitely worth posting again.

The canvas you made me still sits proudly on my bedside table. I do love it! so I'd love to encourage everyone who reads this to leave a comment and cross their fingers!

alexa said...

So glad your inner critic has been shown the door :). We weren't born with one and so they are never part of our true selves. Very inspiring post and hoping it,reaches lots of,your readers again!

scrappyjacky said...

I remember this the first time, hope she's well and truly 'shut up' now!!

Melissa said...

Oh my, I so wanted to win one of your art canvases the first time I met your Inner Critic, so I'm throwing my name in the pot again! :>) I'm sure you know about my favorite color - yellow!

This past year my inner critic has been much more persistent and bothersome than ever in my life - really need to kick her to the curb & be me in 2014!

Cheryl said...

This was so worth reposting! I have learned to quiet my inner critic a tad, but I have yet to shut her up. She's very much a Martha Stewart, and she drives me nuts. Has yours remained quiet since the first time you posted this?

Barbara Eads said...

Wow, your inner critic sounds about like mine. But I have to admit, I do share some of her traits. I'm certainly not perfect, but I am passionate about life and the things I do. I'm driven to learn and to do things to the best of my ability. I guess, I'm at peace with my inner critic--realizing I don't really need to be like her!

Unknown said...

I am a regular reader, not so much a regular commentator (is this such a word?) A very inspiring post; you could probably re post this yearly and everyone could still gain some inspiration & insight from it. Thank you.

Alison said...

I wasn't blogging when you're original post went out, Cheri and I loved it! ...especially the art about Emily Gilmore....maybe next year I should try to get rid of my own IC!
Alison xx

Maria Ontiveros said...

Not sure if I'm too late, but my happy colors right now are yellow, blue and red, in southwest pottery shades, not primary shades. I want to use those as accent colors in the art room I will be creating in the new year.

Miriam said...

I'm sure to be too late, I usually am... but if perchance I am lucky my happy colours are all shades of lavender to purple. I think you should post this post every January. It is veery inspiring. x