Saturday, March 17, 2012

Random Thoughts

The weather has been really odd for March.  You know that old saying "in like a lion, out like a lamb?"  That is typical for March in these parts.  What isn't typical is a string of days in the 60's and 70's that continues long enough for us to see this:

We don't usually see crocuses until April.  We often still have snow in March.  I'm not complaining.  In fact, I love that it has been warm enough to walk outside and get these photos!  It's just weird weather.

A man lies  in a hospital bed in Elmira N.Y. - on life support, dying from esophageal cancer metastasized to the lungs. Brought on by a lifetime of drinking and smoking.  And I feel nothing.  He is a perfect stranger to me.  Does the fact that I inherited half of my DNA from him require me to feel something? I've had no news about him for nearly 30 years, but I was contacted about his "final days."  I was prepared to just let it go, but I can't seem to get the news out of my mind. Should I care? Am I somehow "less than" if I don't?  A question I feel I'll be pondering for awhile.

Carb and Sugar Cravings take over. So far my "Move More Eat Well" intentions for March have been an epic fail. In the first two weeks I craved bread, potatoes, and sweets in the worst way. And I indulged the cravings. I also had a number of "in office" and bad fibro days that undermined any will I might have had to exercise. I'm admitting that I made some less than wonderful choices and choosing not to beat myself up about it. I'm once again in a place of "Start where you are."  And intending to right the wrongs that I inflicted for the past two weeks.

My vacation from reality. So early this week (while still performaing household and work duties) I took a little vacation from reality... and spent a few days following the adventures of Katniss Everdeen in Panem.  Have you heard about the The Hunger Games?
I found the story line compelling, even if the concept was reminiscent of Shirley Jackson's "The Lottery" that I read back in high school.

I read all three books in four days. I would have finished in three if I hadn't had to go into the office one of those days.  Now I can't wait to see the movie!  Would I recommend this series? YES! Great for teens and adults of any age.  Quick easy read, compelling story line, and a great escape from reality!


MonicaB said...

We have been having beautiful weather too. It's strange, but I'm loving it.

I can only image what you are going through with the news you received. Follow your heart and do what YOU need to do. There is no less than or great than, it's just what is needed at the time.

The hunger games are a great escape. I loved these books and have read them a few times. I'm hoping to go on a date night with DH to see the movie.

Sian said...

It's totally understandable that your news has left you feeling confused and unsure. I hope you find some peace x

alexa said...

That's some very moving writing, Melissa, and I hope you find your own way through it ... Hoping for a happier time for you on the healthy eating front too ...

Karen said...

We're having the same wonderful weather here. I know it can't last, but I'm loving it.

We talked about The Hunger Games at dinner. Both Tracy and Sarah have read them, and loved them. I'm not likely to indulge as my pile is already too high.

Thinking of you as you ponder the news you've received.

Melissa said...

I definitely recommend the Hunger Games, too, and Robbie & I already have a date planned to see the movie (he read them, too).

Your March Move More Eat Well sounds like my February. I'm doing better this month, not great, but better . . . and that's good enough for right now.

I think you'll feel something with that tragic news, but you are not REQUIRED to feel any certain way. Sending prayers your way for peace, whatever feelings come your way.

Rebekah said...

Lovely photo...our weather has been the same and my crocus are already DONE...sigh. Sorry to hear of your disconcerting news...follow your heart as others have said. And those books...keep hearing about them...may have to read em'! Hugs to you...

scrappyjacky said...

Thinking of you,Cheri....and it isn't surprising that you are feeling confused by this news.....a mixture of feelings are in there,I'm sure.

Deb @ Paper Turtle said...

Oh gosh, Cheri, I can totally understand your confusion and mixed feelings over the news from New York. I anticipate having those exact same feelings myself someday! Thinking of you... xo

And, on a much happier note, I LOVED Hunger Games!!! Carrie made me read the first one, and I was immediately hooked. Can't wait to see the movie this weekend!

Hang in there, friend! All this is temporary. xo