Tuesday morning, we left for the Philadelphia Airport before sunrise, at 6 a.m.
actually. It is about and hour and fifteen minutes to the airport.
This was the view from I 95 just before we pulled into the Airport grounds.
Pulling into the Philadelphia Airport. 7:15 a.m. I spent the next eight hours in
airports and on planes, arriving in Tucson at 12:30 local time (3:30 my time).
I didn't really see much of Tucson. I saw a dust storm flying in. I saw the airport. I drove a whopping 18 miles from the airport to the hotel. I spent my entire day and a half on hotel grounds.
View from the back of the hotel lobby, overlooking the pool and the mountains
behind the hotel.
Cactus along the road leading up to the hotel. I took a walk
back down (85 degrees and 1:30 in the afternoon... what
was I thinking?) the road to take photos.
This view is from outside the front of the hotel... from the upper level parking
area. Tucson is definitely not flat!
View from the balcony of my hotel room, looking left. If I looked straight out I
was facing the pool and to the right, the main hotel lobby.
Wednesday, I spent nearly 9 hours inside one of the hotel conference rooms. I
took 14 pages of notes. Afterwards I was spent. I went back to my room, called
for room service, and read until bedtime.
Thursday, I was up at 4:30 a.m. and drove myself back to the Tuscon airport in
the dark. And did the whole first day in reverse. Arriving back at my home
around 7:30 p.m. Another U.S. city down and no site seeing done. Some day
On October 1st Jay and I joined in the Scott Kelby Annual Photo Walk. We were in downtown Doylestown PA and very luckily the predicted rain held off and we had a nice morning. Here are some of my favorite shots:
A sculpture at the James Michener Museum of Art
Don't know what kind of flower this was on a large bush overhead, but thought it was really cool!
Love the way this tree had literally grown around and
enveloped the headstone. Feels like there is a story there.
some kind of fungus on a tree - looks like sea shells
close up
really tall tree
this tree grew around and through the iron fence
A little further back to give the full perspective
I'm writing this post on Monday, the 3rd, but setting it to go live on my blog on Thursday, the 6th. I had finished these little canvases and needed to have them on their way to their new owners before this post went live. Hopefully at least one of them will be in hand before the big reveal!
For Karen - who asked for the Mary Oliver quote. I chose the colors for her canvas
based on one of her favorite color schemes for the cards she makes - kraft, black,
and red. I even used some of the rub-ons she had sent me! So they went right
back to her, just in a different form.
For Sian, who gave me no direction, but who loves books and
telling stories, and vintage color schemes,
this just seemed the right way to go.
First I wanted to say a very heart-felt thanks to everyone who has posted positive thoughts, hugs, prayers, and good vibes in response to my Storytelling Sunday post. Every single comment is greatly appreciated... positive vibes and prayers gratefully accepted... I'll take all the help I can get in coping with this! So many thanks and {{{{hugs}}}} right back to you all!
I won't be around for a bit. Leaving on a jet plane before the sun rises this morning. Headed to Tucson AZ for work. Won't be back until late on Thursday. Leaving you with this:
Taken September 29, 2010 from my back yard. "God puts rainbows in the clouds so that each of us - in the dreariest and most dreaded moments - can see a possibility of hope." ~ Maya Angelou
In this episode, our heroine finds herself faced with new medical obstacles and searching for solutions. But she doesn't want to be "that lady" ... you know that one... you most likely have an elderly relative or neighbor who is "that lady"... the one who only ever wants to talk about her medical problems and what the doctor said at the latest visit and how it is affecting her every bodily function in excruciating detail, on and on, until you are ready to make a run for the hills just to avoid the verbal onslaught of medical terminology that is sure to cause you to catch something icky...
Provisional diagnosis on the 15th. But first the doctor had to rule out a host of other ugliness - lupus, lyme, rheumatoid arthritis, Vitamin D deficiency... honestly, I can't even tell you everything they tested for - just that it took SEVEN vials of blood to run all the tests. All of which, thankfully, after waiting around a full week, came back normal. Because as scary as fibromyalgia is, the other options were a heap load more frightening to contemplate. Fibromyalgia Syndrome is not life threatening and not debilitating unless you let it be. I am so grateful it was not anything worse.
The best way I can describe fibromyalgia - it feels like you have the flu – your body aches all over, you have a non-stop headache, and you just feel lethargic – all you want to do is curl up in a corner and sleep… or maybe read a good novel. Only unlike the flu, this feeling doesn't resolve after a few days. In my case, it has been ongoing for months. Some days better than others, but never a day that is totally pain or fatigue free. And the constant pain and fatigue has a tendency to make you a bit, um, ... cranky. Yep, cranky.
The worst symptom IMHO is the fatigue. Total. mind. numbing. fatigue.
"Today I don't feel like doing anything. I just want to lay in my bed."
Fatigue that leaves you unable to concentrate on anything. Almost like you've suddenly developed ADD. And you know how sometimes you have a word on the tip of your tongue but you can't find it for a few seconds? Well, that seems to be a daily occurrence now, multiple times a day. Serious Brain Fog
All that to say, I've been away from my blog for awhile and just recently reappeared. You may have noticed a lack of comments from me on your blogs as well - I assure you I have read every post, just didn't have the energy to comment most of the time!
I waited for the blood work to come back before saying anything. I wanted a confirmed diagnosis. And I guess I needed some time to digest it all. All the uncertainty, fear, depression. I needed to work it out. I didn't want to gunk up my blog with posts about worries and complaints. I so DON'T want to be "that lady."
On the same day my diagnosis was confirmed, this post came up in my Google Reader. Jonathan Fields writes that "...uncertainty is the new normal." Check. The past four or five months have been living testament to that. But he goes on to say "When you find the strength to act in the face of uncertainty, you till the soil of genius." Cool. I must be borderline brilliant by now!
I think that blog post was just the Universe's way of letting me know that it is okay to feel uncertain about where things are at and where they are going.
Truth is, I know that I will cope. I know that I will find ways to work around, over, and through it. I refuse to allow fibromyalgia to define me or to defeat me.
My first act of defiance will be to go sugar-free for the month of October ... just to see if the change in diet has an effect on the symptoms. Not crazy sugar-free (I'm not reading pasta sauce labels or eliminating my morning bowl of organic oatmeal that is sweetened with organic cane sugar). I am eliminating all cakes, cookies, brownies, ice cream, etc. Believe me... it is a big enough percentage of my current eating habits to make a difference! Even if it doesn't touch the fibromyalgia symptoms, it will at least be healthier! Maybe a side-effect will be a reduction in waistline chub???
And today I was reminded that happiness must come from within. I'm drawing on reserves right now. But I'm still smiling. :)
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My one little word for 2011 is "happy". I am focusing this year on what it means to be happy, what makes me happy, how mindful I can be about choosing happiness.
For September, Ali asked us to pick one thing that we were going to focus on during the month, and one thing that we chose to "let go". I took awhile to think about it, but realized it was a really good thing to meditate on... I have so many things competing for my attention all the time and I really needed to focus. But as usual, I can never follow directions!
I chose three things to focus on for the month - exercise (15 minutes every day), morning pages (journaling), and participating in LOAD - although I only wrote about the exercise part in the form Ali gave us.
To keep track of my focus items I created this chart, totally scraplifted from Melissa:
It is easy to see that I wasn't perfect. But as I write this, with two days left to finish out the month, just look at all those stars! I may not have made my goal of "every. single. day." but I can't help but wonder how many days I wouldn't have exercised or written morning pages if I hadn't made the commitment!
At the same time, I chose to surrender my involvement in Art Journal Caravan (I haven't done a single art journal page of the digi variety this year), the Goddess Circle, Project 64, and Album of Awesome. These are all things that I signed up for or got involved in but then lost interest in favor of other projects and opportunities. And I need to be okay with saying I tried it, but it just wasn't for me. So freeing to just let them go!
I loved my September Goals chart so much, that I already made one for October!
I also finished the cover of my One Little Word album. Remember what it looked like last month? Well, here it is finished!
I decided after staring at it for days that my problem was the butterflies, while pretty, were so FLAT. So I drew in a shadow. Then I drew in stitching to give them additional dimension.
Then I drew on the border - which kind of ties in with the look Ali has given us with the pages throughout.
Once the border was there, I decided it needed some inking to soften the edges.
Then the title. I didn't want to use my word "happy" because I intend to continue using this album for whatever word I choose for 2012!
The final touch was adding this gorgeous wing charm that Ginger sent me in a packet of butterfly and bird themed ephemera. Got to say I just LOVE it!
Thanks to everyone for your helpful suggestions on finishing off the cover. I'm loving this album and so so glad I took this class! Ali has already said that it will be offered again in 2012... I highly recommend it!